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From Stuck to Soaring

From Stuck to Soaring

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Lately, I feel like I’ve been on a soaring journey. It’s the kind of thrilling experience that makes you want to shout it from the rooftops. Everything seems to be falling into place at the perfect moment, propelling me towards my ultimate goal: motherhood. 

This feeling of momentum is a welcome change. I’m used to feeling stuck, a familiar state where I lacked full self-love and settled for “good enough.” I’d work hard, but never quite reach my goals.

Embracing this newfound freedom feels exhilarating. Change is good, inevitable, and key to achieving my dreams. I’m 1000% confident in my decision to become a single mom by choice (SMBC). I know I’ll be a wonderful mother, and it’s one of the few things missing in my life.

What surprised me about this SMBC journey is the rapid pace of change. Since making this decision in April, everything seems to be aligning. The first step, earning my wings,  involved that my previous diagnosis was wrong. Better yet, my hormonal levels are excellent, and I have follicles – glorious, life-giving follicles! As I begin to take flight, a few things became clear:

  • I have a village, and I need its support.
  • I’m deeply grateful for the opportunities offered by the Jewish community.
  • Good news feels amazing, and I deserve to celebrate it!

This celebration leads to the next step in my soaring journey: moving closer to my village.

I’m not naive about the challenges ahead. Sleepless nights, exhaustion, and unexpected moments are inevitable. This path may not be fiscally responsible, but as I mentioned in my first blog, the thought of not being a mother was unbearable. Bringing a child into the world, especially a Jewish child, is worth some debt.

This journey has revealed a lot about myself, most importantly, my ability to overcome challenges and take control. So next week, my flight path will continue. I’m putting my house up for sale to be closer to my support system.

I’ll miss my wonderful neighbors, my charming old house (quirks and all), and the convenience of my current location. But I’m willing to make these sacrifices to become a mom. Finally, with wings spread wide and a flight plan in place, it truly feels like my time to soar. 

The next leg of my journey takes flight in mid-July when I begin the egg retrieval process of IVF.

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