Eggcellent Mom Chronicles

I am a queen of overthinking! I often replay embarrassing or frustrating moments on repeat in my mind, berating myself for how things should have gone or could have gone. It’s a dangerous cycle to enter and so hard to shut off. Sometimes, this tendency can be a strength because it allows me to reflect on my days and identify ways I can grow. Other times, it’s extremely detrimental—resulting in nothing but a sleepless night.

Lately, I’ve been working on simply trusting and letting go. “Simple” might not be the best word, but I’m trying not to overthink it! Instead of replaying my failed transfer, I’m taking one day—or even one minute—at a time as I move toward my last transfer, the best one.

Tonight marks the beginning of the Jewish month of Kislev. We’re finally entering a month with something to celebrate—a miracle that brings light into our physically dark world. My spiritual self can’t help but long for a miracle of my own this month. It feels almost fortuitous that this is the time we emerge from the darkness, with longer days on the horizon. I know I need to pause and place trust in the process—trust in my doctors, my body, and my tiny frozen embaby, who is preparing for implantation in just over a week.

True to my overthinking nature, I couldn’t resist looking up the root meaning of Kislev to understand its significance more deeply. To my surprise—and in the universe’s perfect timing—I discovered the root of Kislev is twofold: it means both trust and hope. Now more than ever, this feels like my month.

This new month also means new medications and procedures to prepare for my upcoming transfer. It’s back to early morning progesterone injections and a long-term antihistamine regimen. I’ve also scheduled a platelet-rich plasma procedure to optimize my uterine environment.

I’m ready to bring light into this world in the form of a Jewish soul. I want to celebrate both a miracle and the incredible science that makes it possible. With all my trust and hope, I’m praying that this embaby is ready to stick!

For those who wish to support my journey, my GoFundMe page is still open. Every donation feels like a light of encouragement, and I’m so grateful for your generosity.